很難過。
但其實這樣的結果不應該感到驚訝的。這三四個月我沒有100%的認真，中間多次偷懶，沒有練筆，沒有基礎，和那些早早開始準備又努力到最後的人是天差地遠。今年的題目不難，我應該會有一些些很小的機會，but I don't get it. It's all my fault.
重榜率很高，那些人是像小羊一樣真正準備好的。我沒有。這也是一個來得很剛好的當頭棒喝：不真真正正的努力，什麼都沒有。
還有一場，在四個月後。真的是最後一個機會，我越來越老，沒有時間了。八月中考完後先工作，然後再一步一步前進。這段時間的空檔我非常感激，也非常慚愧。I am sorry.
這陣子都無法再笑。
2009年4月17日 星期五
2009年4月14日 星期二
2009年3月22日 星期日
two talks today
I had two significant talks with two different friends today. One was comfortable, another one was serious but worthwhile.
For the former one, I am always happy to receive phonecalls from you:] It's nice to talk again. You are always the most suitable one when I want to share feelings about sadness, self-talkings and emotions. I know you will never laugh at me or tease on me. Furthermore, I always feel being deep-understood and non-lonely after talking with you.
For the later one, I have to thank you for always being patient to me. I also learn a lot about human nature, rules and values. You always mention some viewpoints which I have never thought about. It's true that we two are really different, but I really get a lot from you. We seldom have things in common, almost never had same attitude or method on one thing. But it's cool to get a very different idea from mine. There is never an absolute value for anything, and I can always learn more about you and people by hearing your thought.
A wonderful night filled with music and talkings. Though now I don't have enough time to read my new books, I am still very satisfied.
Start from tomorrow :]
What I need is a cry, more studies and hard-workings.
For the former one, I am always happy to receive phonecalls from you:] It's nice to talk again. You are always the most suitable one when I want to share feelings about sadness, self-talkings and emotions. I know you will never laugh at me or tease on me. Furthermore, I always feel being deep-understood and non-lonely after talking with you.
For the later one, I have to thank you for always being patient to me. I also learn a lot about human nature, rules and values. You always mention some viewpoints which I have never thought about. It's true that we two are really different, but I really get a lot from you. We seldom have things in common, almost never had same attitude or method on one thing. But it's cool to get a very different idea from mine. There is never an absolute value for anything, and I can always learn more about you and people by hearing your thought.
A wonderful night filled with music and talkings. Though now I don't have enough time to read my new books, I am still very satisfied.
Start from tomorrow :]
What I need is a cry, more studies and hard-workings.
2009年2月15日 星期日
選擇
分類帽：你有某種必要的特質，該有的一樣不缺，非常適合。
哈利：不要不要，不要史萊哲林！
分類帽：不要啊，雖然可惜，不過也沒有辦法了！那就葛來分多！
校長：無論別人覺得你適合什麼，自己的選擇終究是最重要的。
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所以不要擔心：）或許那方面的能力還很缺乏：說到別人心坎兒裡、聽見弦外之音...。但這應該都可以加強和練習，只要我想。重要的是我已經決定了這個方向和這條道路，不要沒事就心慌慌，沒有空給妳為這些煩躁了。眼前不太明朗沒錯，但看得清的那邊已經確定不太會是我喜歡的風景，就轉個方向，朝似乎有光的地方前進！沒有問題的。
哈利：不要不要，不要史萊哲林！
分類帽：不要啊，雖然可惜，不過也沒有辦法了！那就葛來分多！
校長：無論別人覺得你適合什麼，自己的選擇終究是最重要的。
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所以不要擔心：）或許那方面的能力還很缺乏：說到別人心坎兒裡、聽見弦外之音...。但這應該都可以加強和練習，只要我想。重要的是我已經決定了這個方向和這條道路，不要沒事就心慌慌，沒有空給妳為這些煩躁了。眼前不太明朗沒錯，但看得清的那邊已經確定不太會是我喜歡的風景，就轉個方向，朝似乎有光的地方前進！沒有問題的。
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